If you have kept up with my blog, then I am sure that you noticed that I did not keep up with my Meditation Challenge for the month of May. You will have noticed that I stopped on May 18th after posting an article called “Why I stopped meditating: acts of rebellion + intention” and I haven’t blogged since. Well, there is a reason for why I stopped meditating and blogging and if you read the post on May 18th, you will have a good understanding why this was so.
I started blogging as a way to educate myself, as a way to show my journey as it progresses and to gain some small bit of happiness and clarity for myself. Over the course of my meditation challenge, the focus and reasoning of my blogging shifted from sharing my journey and having the aid of others in the cyber world to a chore that I felt like needed to be completed daily. I didn’t want this to happen. I didn’t want to meditate for those reasons. I want to meditate and post on my blog when I feel compelled to do so with the right intention. I want to blog as often as possible, but at the same time, I don’t want to feel obligated to blog. The purpose of my blog is not to see how many people will view it a day, as I have started to make it, but for me; solely and 100 percent for me to document my journey, to get others to understand where I am coming from and to aid me in becoming the person that I want to be.
I stopped blogging to come back to the original reasoning for my Christian-Buddhist Journey. I am finding this journey to be really interesting as I continue to meditate when I feel the need to. I find this journey to be really interesting as I am building my believes and understanding of the world. From this point on, I will not have a scheduled time to blog or specific things that I will blog about. I hope you find understanding and will find the need to aid me as I work through life.
– Meditating doesn’t guarantee that you’ll be more compassionate or loving, it just means you can call yourself a meditator.) (1)
– The very thing I was doing to feel liberated felt confining. (1)